I hear more and more these days about people having obsessive-compulsive disorder. I am thankful that my own personal challenge of living with OCD doesn’t involve some of the more extreme symptoms. Like switching lights on and off a certain amount of times, or counting things over and over. My own personal challenge is with doing things a certain way, my way, without wanting anyone else to do it for me. This is a challenge because how nice it would be for say my teenager to unload the dishwasher once in awhile! My OCD makes me feel like only I need to unload the dishwasher because I know the exact place for everything in the dishwasher to go. No one else seems to know that there are different size forks and they like to be separated into their own little place in the drawer. Or that the bowls enjoy being stacked in perfect little stacks in a certain way in the cabinet. I also like things in the fridge in a certain place, and work at keeping it organized! Am I extreme? I don’t think so. I like to think that this is how my brain functions best. I function best when everything is in its own place.
Ways that I get super motivated to organize …
- Watch the TV show Hoarders or Clean House
- Let the to-do bin get full so I can spend an hour organizing it
Sometimes even the simplest thing like cleaning the grill is enhanced by my OCD. Instead of leaving the grill dirty after use, for my husband to clean, I will spend an hour out there making it perfect for the next use! I like the way the stainless steel glistens in the sun when I finish polishing it. The grates all cleaned perfectly for the next use, somehow makes my heart sing! To someone without OCD this might sound strange, but to me, an hour spent doing it perfectly is somehow utterly satisfying!
While watching an episode the other day of The Fabulous Beeker Boys (planetgreen.com), there was a part of the episode where Brent decided maybe the barn windows needed cleaning. To me that made perfect sense! I could see myself in his compulsion to get even the simplest thing like the barn windows clean. Why would you get the barn cleaned up for a party, and not clean the windows to let more sunlight in! My brain sees things that way too!
I know there are extremes for OCD and I’m very grateful that I have it in a way that makes me clean every unneeded piece of paper out of my purse and wallet almost daily. I will scrub the sink until I’m sure it’s clean and no germs are growing. I will organize the pantry and line everything up with their labels facing the next person who opens the pantry door. I will make sure that the filing is done in such a way that if my sweet husband, David, were to have to find something and I’m not here, he could easily find things filed away.
I hope that my OCD doesn’t swing to a degree where it would require outside help because the way it is now, is perfect for how my life functions best!
What causes me to be this way I wonder? What causes me to be so annoyed if things aren’t done my way? What makes my way the way? These are questions I have no answer for. Some may call it boundless energy, or ADD, or hyperactivity. Others call it obsessive-compulsive disorder, but I like to think of it as obsessive-compulsive get things in order. For when things are orderly, I function best. It doesn’t feel like a disorder it feels like perfect order or harmony to me …