Months after seeing the still outline of my baby’s spine on the ultrasound, there are days when I am consumed overwhelming sadness. I know this loss is miniscule when compared to other losses such as losing a living child and that I need to move on. This child inside me did not yet have a personality. We did not have a history. But I still ache. I felt complete before I found out about my surprise pregnancy. I did not long for any more babies and was happy to put that stage of my life behind me. I wish I could get this feeling back instead of the longing that I now feel and the sense that someone is missing from my life.
