One of my theme songs when I feel the rumblings of a major shift in my life comes from my favorite movie, West Side Story.
I don’t know what it is
But it is gonna be Grand!”
The air is hummin’
And something great
Is comin’ …
Ah, I’m growing, I’m shifting, and I’m remembering me. I turned fifty in September and the sleepy me is rebirthing and I can’t wait! Seems I’m ready to move on from the shelter of numbers (payroll manager) I’ve lived in over the last twenty years. In high school my interests were drama and music. It was quite by accident I ended up in payroll—I didn’t have any interest in the world of business; just fell into it working for a friend’s husband. The career chose me and was definitely a secure place to land after a divorce … quite black and white. Found I was very good at it and the organizing. But now I think the true sense of me is coming out and I have the courage to explore it.
This past year I’ve become a Reiki Therapist, begun writing, designed my own Web site, created a training program for my company, and co-hosted our Christmas party as an elf! Okay, this is definitely moving up the charts into the realm of people encounters, not spreadsheet security. I’m moving from software conversions to creating life encounters. The feedback has been unsolicited and unanimously positive: “You’re in the wrong line of work!” I took a part-time job with a high end clothing company and my manger loves to have me work with the customers, saying, “You of course can handle the registers but your strength is with the people.” Daily I look forward to finding a way to put my intuition and creativity to work, to share and connect with others, to release fear and be my best self.
Meditation is my friend. Books continue to sustain me while overflowing from the nightstand. I’m converting my mind processes from system upload problem solving to fueling my personal interests that will convert to my new life work—to sustain me both emotionally and financially.
Yep, I can’t stop smiling. Feels like I have found a secret, one that is infectious and joyous. The abundance of light and energy I receive from the universe flows through me to others without effort. Gratefully I embrace this journey and celebrate each minute, knowing as I embrace me, I’m right on track.