Lapis

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Lapis

Hey.. I'm Lapis.. A middle aged, divorced lady who is actually going to be living by herself 4 the first time - ever. Don't know if I'll be successful or not - too soon to know, but I'm going to try like Hell to make it happen.<br /> I was married for35 years to a wonderful man I loved, for the first 20, but it slowly slipped away from me. Like so many other women I've spoken with, it just happened, not anyone's fault, just slowly crept into my marriage.. Wanted to leave many times, but just didn't find the courage. No kids, just dogs, but still had the fear of abandoning a perfectly good man and being 'alone' and failing. <br /> Then, did it. Recently. Divorced now, still friends, to a certain point, and in a relationship w/ a great older&nbsp;man, who is unfortunately married, very unhappily. Or so he says. <br /> I know - I'm foolish. AND, I&nbsp;know it. But, I think I'm going to be OK. When I know it's over, I know I have the courage to say goodbye. I've already done that with a much more important relationship.<br /> I am a small business owner, who is fairly goodat awitching gers, so am moving to another state to start something new, and&nbsp;am&nbsp;a sister to a bunch of brothers. I'm quiet, don't have a lot of good friends but the ones I&nbsp;have keep coming back. Thank God.<br /> That is who I am. Right now, anyway.<br />