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Monica Zeuli

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Monica Zeuli

<p>Well, I've dont know if I have ever been this messed up and level headed at the same time.&nbsp; Im confused. One moment I am sure I made the right decision to go it alone and then all of a sudden Im lonely and doubting myself.&nbsp; I've been separated since May, and it is a whirlwind.&nbsp; I dont have any answers but I know I love being alone at the same time.&nbsp; How can someone be so confused about their feelings.&nbsp; I think the only thing I miss besides my/his dog is the image of what was. The security of having someone by your side. Going to bed next to someone can be over rated.&nbsp; I sleep better now that I sleep alone. I can sleep later without feeling guilty.<br /> <br /> Ahhhh there is that word, GUILTY.&nbsp; Guilt can paralyze you into depression.&nbsp; I have learned this once before with the death of my dog, you'd think I'd learn by now how to manage it. Better yet, how to let go.&nbsp; Why do we hang onto it when we know it drags us down?&nbsp; Maybe Im guilty of being happy so I dont allow myself to feel the pleasure of being happy when&nbsp;I know he isnt.&nbsp; It was the same thing with my dogs death.&nbsp; The guilty freedom of not being obligated to responsibility. This is where it stems......the root of all guilt. <br /> <br /> My New Years Resolution, to let go.</p> <p>Anyone have advice?</p>